Jun. 12th, 2004

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Today's writing prompt -

Capture the child inside by recalling some of the colorful images you once associated with the idea of Santa Claus.

Ahem. I can give it a shot, but I don't think it will be pretty. Give me a second..

My mom obviously didn't believe in indulging childhood fantasies because when I was very young (maybe 3 or 4) she explained that Santa wasn't real. That the men dressed up in red suits were really just ordinary people pretending to be Santa and not his helpers at all. I apparently had wondered how Santa could be at the Westroads Mall and at the Crossroads Mall at the same time. We had just left one to go to the other and I guess it frazzled my poor little girl brain as to how he could have beaten us there when we had obviously left before he had.

In such blunt and brutal honesty she systematically destroyed all of my childhood illusions from the Easter Bunny to the Tooth Fairy until there was nothing left for me to believe or hope in. On one hand I can understand why she would not want to lie to her children. On the other hand I feel that I was deprived of some sort of essential kid's experience.

What harm would it have done for a little girl to believe, even temporarily, that there really was a Santa? What harm was there in fantasizing about a big pink bunny that delivered colorful Easter eggs? In her own way she aided me unwittingly in becoming the cynical individual I am today. Spirit of Christmas, I scoff. Who needs it?

But still I'm sure if I try hard enough I can come up with some colorful images. I'm not saying they'll be happy go lucky. More likely they will be sour and full of misplaced anger or maybe jealousy.

So here goes!

The REAL Meaning of Christmas A semi-sarcastic essay/journal entry by yellowhorde

Santa Claus was a crazy man dressed in red and white from head to toe with a long scraggly beard. Why was he crazy, you may ask? He'd have to be to put up with lines and lines of squirming, obnoxious little kids waiting either with excitement or trepidation to sit on his lap. Listening to a thousand tiny voices either crying in fear or eagerly whispering all their holiday fantasies of toys wrapped in bright colors and gay ribbons amassed under the poor dead corpse of a pine tree, swathed in blinking lights, baubles, and tons of shredded tinsel - a once living organism cut down for sheer pleasure of indulging in some pointless tradition.

Here's my bit of unsolicited advice - GET AN ARTIFICIAL TREE, PEOPLE! JEEZ!

Santa is an escape goat/dangling carrot for many parents. If a child didn't get the present he/she wanted, blame it on Santa! Maybe he forgot, maybe he didn't get that long, detailed list of exactly what the child wanted. (My youngest sister wrote such a list but, of course, it wasn't for Santa because she knows better. Mom is Santa so it's best to direct all lists of toys, music, etc. to her and her alone. I've seen that list and my God, the girl can't spell!) Maybe he didn't think or believe for even a moment that said child was the little cherub they pretended to be for the last 31/2 weeks. Maybe he knows better. Tough luck, kiddo, maybe you'll have better luck next year.

Yeah, right.

How many times have you witnessed this scene? And don't lie, cause I know you have. It's a growing phenomenon in our nation of greed and commercialism. Picture this is you will (or if you can stand to relive the horror) You're at the mall fighting the vast and, often times, rude hordes of shoppers who are also looking for that perfect gift for that certain special someone. You are just about having a claustrophobic fit because there is little or no elbowroom - even less if you have the misfortune of being stuck in a toy store. And then you hear it - not for the first time and most certainly not the last time - some frustrated parent telling their screaming, red faced little monster that if they weren't good, if they didn't behave (read shut up and stop making a scene in public) then Santa wouldn't give them any toys? Or worse, they would find nothing in their stockings Christmas morning except for lumps of coal.

Just curious, but has anyone EVER scene this ploy work? I never have. If anything, it makes the child scream and yell even louder. It makes me glad that I'm not a parent. Why put yourself through that sort of nonsense? Why not just leave the child at home when you go Christmas shopping? It makes sense, and of course, because it does, most parents have never even considered such a possibility. Go figure.

Santa brings gift to all the good little boys and girls of the world. UH- HUN. What if you don't have a chimney, you child innocently wonders. How can he deliver all the toys in just one night? You have to give your children some credit. They have more sense and a better grasp at logic than we usually give them credit for.

What really blasts my mind is the vast and intricate lies parents will tell their children in order to sustain the myth of Santa Claus. He lives in the North Pole. He has eight magical, not to mention flying and time defying, reindeer who pull him around the world on just one night every year. He knows if you've been naughty or nice. He has all of these little elves to help him make his toys - never mind that many toys say 'Made In Taiwan' on the bottom. Try explaining that one, parents. And you'd be amazed what other sort of stuff they will come up with. It boggles the mind. And who says that kids have the better imagination? I'll put my money on the adult any time.

Despite everything, it is my own sarcastic/cynical nature that leads me to believe in one heart wrenching truth. Belief in Santa is a luxury that only the well to do can sustain for any real length of time. While the belief that some jolly, kind hearted fat man goes out of his way to make and deliver toys to 'all the good boys and girls of the world', the truth is simply not so nice.

What do you tell the little girl whose parents can't afford to pay their rent let alone buy Christmas toys? Santa won't be visiting her home trailing gifts and goodies in his wake. Does that mean that she was naughty? Does that mean that she is less deserving of a toy to love and cherish? No. It simply means that life can be cruel. That sometimes reality is a cold thing that must be faced even if it means shelving age-old beliefs and childhood fantasies in the face of that reality.

For thousands of children this means that they are striped of a certain amount of innocence, of some fundamental belief in the impossible. Real life has a way of stepping in and giving even the most innocent a sharp reality slap. There is no denying the sting of that slap. Does it make it right? Acceptable? I don't know and I'm not one to decide. Children need to believe, if even for a short time, in their childhood fantasies even if they are blown up to such proportions as Santa Claus.

Even though I am one of the most cynical people I know, I am glad that for those children who are less fortunate, there is a little hope. Charities like Toys for Tots and many others give these children a chance to believe that there is a Santa, that there is hope out there. In these cases, the real Santas are the nameless individuals who take time out of their busy schedule and even busier lives to give the gift of hope and joy to a child in need. To give new toys to kids who would have had to do without.

THAT is the real meaning of Christmas. THAT is what it should be all about.
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These are just some poems from way long ago - some of them are over fifteen years old or even older. Has it really been THAT long?

Well, anyway, as the title says, I kept a bunch of stuff in a cedar chest, you know, photo albums, scrap books, stuff that meant a whole lot to me ten years ago but are now kind of stupid and pointless. I had lost the key and for years the stuff in that cedar chest was forgotten until now. I can't believe I wrote this shit. In hindsight it would seem that I was a very depressed individual, though that doesn't surprise me. But, quite honestly, some of this stuff no longer makes sense to me for I've forgotten the intentions behind some of the poems.

Oh, well. Time marches on.

According to the date, this poem was written in the winter of 1985. This is one of those ones that make you go, "What the hell was I thinking when I wrote this?"

LILY OF THE VALLEY

The sun may rise

The moon will fall

And across the fields

One hears the cries

'I am the lily of the valley'

The song of beauty, truth, and honor

The song that Mankind seldom hears

The song that Man's voice cannot conquer

Happiness, love, hope, joy and cheer

'I am the lily'

'The lily of the valley.'
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I remember it was in the spring of 1986 when I wrote this. I was sitting in the park and I was very upset about something, though I can't remember what exactly, probably about my no-good stepfather. Seems likely. He was the bane of my existence. Loser.

SWINGS

To swing on a swing

It's a solitary thing

Its something you do all alone

When there's no one to talk to

Cause nobody cares

And nobody loves you at home
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I wrote this originally for an assignment in French. I, of course, no longer remember the French words, but since I wrote it originally in English then translated it into French, I guess it doesn't matter. This poem was done in the winter of 1988.

THE PINE TREES


The pine trees
Strong and quiet
Watching the sun set
Beyond the mountains
Silence
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In the spring of 1989 I was sitting in Chemistry class and thinking about the possibilities of nuclear war. I don't know why I was thinking about that really, but I DO remember that my Chemistry teacher was the most boring teacher alive on the face of the earth and I would have done anything to get out of that stupid class.

THEY ARE COMING


They are coming
Hear the thunder roar
They are coming
See them unsheathe their bloody swords
They are coming
To unleash their inhuman wrath
The end of the world is upon us
They are coming

They are here.
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Don't ask me about this one. The date on the paper says it was written in the autumn of 1990. It's a bit bizarre and I can't properly recall what in the Hell I was thinking when I did this one. All I can say is that I am SO GLAD I am no longer in High School. I can honestly say that those years were NOT the best years of my life. College was much better. *^-^*


THE TUNNEL


Can you see the light?
The light at the end of the tunnel?
Can you hear the voices?
Laughing, crying, screaming
Dying
Fading
Taunting, growing louder
Reaching out in darkness
Running for the light
Feel them near
So far away
Touching nothing
Seeing no one
The light blows out

Trapped.
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Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing and I make no money from this or any fanfic I write.
Pairings: 1+R, D+R
Category: General/Angst, PWP
Rating: PG13
Warnings: Shojo ai
Title: Trapped In A Snowball
Author: yellowhorde


TRAPPED IN A SNOWBALL )
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Disclaimer: I don't own Hamtaro and I make no money from this or any other story I write. This story was inspired by the book, 'Sylvester: The Mouse With the Musical Ear', written by Adelaide Holl and illustrated by N.M. Bodecker
Pairings: None
Category: General
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Title: The Magical Guitar
Author: yellowhorde
Note: To Alexis, Happy 10th Birthday, kiddo!
Love, Auntie Heaboo. (Don't worry, I'm still getting you a 'real' present! *^-^*


THE MAGICAL GUITAR )

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